During the month of January I am writing to prompts provided by WordPress. So the prompt for today:
What fear have you conquered?
I grew up in a very orthodox Hindu home and I got married to an even orthodox household. But with autism, it is really hard to do orthodox ritual practices. In the beginning of my journey with autism, I was missing on many of the practices and had a fear that I would be punished by God. As I aged, I understood God is not a person to be feared. I understood if I miss a ritual God is not going to get angry and my transformation began. I became a spiritual person.
If you read my blogs, I write a lot about all the Hindu festivals I am celebrating. All are conducted with love, but not with fear. The practices I do happen with ease and not out of compulsion. Over the years, I have my husband’s full support and he also has changed. Yes, we both still do have some rituals that we feel has to be done and would compel ourselves over but we tease each other saying that is our OCD.
Here are some pictures, of our weekend Pongal, Sankranthi celebrations at our home. The third day is to offer food to the birds(especially crows) and a huge ritual which I used to love as little girl. I did it today early in the morning and am waiting to see which animal shows up to eat my leftovers.