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Why do you blog?

Today morning I woke after sleeping for more than eight hours at stretch. I called my Mom and told her that in my dream my dead grandparents had contracted covid😃! My Mom was their caretaker for many years so we had a laugh about it.

So why was I so tired? I went to the amusement park. After many years I rode a roller coaster. I have gone in Disney world, that was more than a decade ago, but yesterday I decided to try one again. I found out I am fine with the ones where my legs have a grounding space and do not hang freely. So, how did I do. I screamed 😊! I chanted prayers and closed my eyes. I also spent seventeen dollars to get that memory picture.

After the ride, me and my husband had a conversation as to why we were more scared about the ride. It was nothing to do with our body but just with our attitude and anxiety towards the ride and it was all in our brain. After this ride, we went on a water ride. Everyone were putting their stuff inside a bin so that things would not get wet. My husband said, he was nervous to even place our memory picture inside the bin, since he thought someone would pick it up by mistake. In fact a group of teenagers had placed not only their pictures but their purses too.

It got us thinking more, how age makes us get nervous for even simple and silly things. I remember an impromptu trip to New York City from Boston. We made a trip one Christmas Eve and visited Rockefeller Center and The Empire State Building. At that time, we did not have a GPS, a very hyper four year old autistic kid and on top it, I was suffering from a severe sinus pain. I remember my husband getting a coffee after midnight on our trip back and me popping up Tylenol. I asked my husband if we would go on such a trip? No, even I would not plan that kind of trip. My boy is now so much more mature and on top of it we have GPS and of course we have a much better bank balance.

Is our age blocking us from enjoying things in life? That is what has been going through our minds the past twelve hours. Yes, age does stops us from doing some things do physically. But our maturity really stops us from executing simple things and enjoying the same.

I would say our trip yesterday was really fruitful in so many different ways. It got us to reflect upon so many things so fast.

What would I have done if I did not have a blog? We would have just talked about it and left it there. But now that I have penned it down and me and my husband can revisit and change ourselves if we are falling down to the anxiety wagon!!! Are we booking a trip to Universal Studio and doing all the roller coaster rides? No, we are not going to do that. But we may go on an impromptu road trip and not worry about so many tiny details. In fact that roller coaster ride was an impromptu decision and we came out of it in one piece so, yes we are not going to break.

My blog is all about positivity and I think our realization yesterday is all about positive attitude.